i was still happily shopping around bugis village when i receive a call from peihua that the results is out yesterday. It definitely dampen my mood, forcing me to face the reality once again.I am really scare of the outcome which i am sure i will be deeply affected by it.=[
After i checked my results last night,the outcome is simply disappointing. i am pretty sure anyone who have got the similar results as i do will be damn
upset over it. But i am not too sure why i did not have that feeling.By right i should be very sad and hate myself for it,cursing and keep asking myself why is it that i get such lousy results. But neither of this happened.sad isnt it?haiz..
On the other hand, i think i am feelinq quite alright with the results.haha.maybe because i know i have done my best therefore no regrets.or could it because I was already preparing for the worst and it is not as bad as i expected?I am not too sure either.
But coming back to reality, i am so much much behind compared to many other ppl in nus.Just the thought of it feels sucky.I guess the most important lesson learned is to be satisfied.As long as u have done your best and that you did not let yourself down.I hope by doing that it will gradually lead to success.
Results is not everything,though it is the most important factor in uni.But i do not want myself to be constantly under the whole loads of stress, forcing myself when uiltimately this is the further i can stretch.
This will be the last stage of my study life, as long as i have did my best, i hope it will be enough.No matter how hard i push, getting a first class honours is indeed impossible, i know my own limits.
I hope there are many other things in my uni life that i can treasure beside results.it might be difficult but hopefully friendships and bonds which i have yet to cultivate.
Right now i still need to consider whether should i S/U one of the modules that i took.Why is life full of decision making?
i have got more to learn till....
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